Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Again and again

I was looking back at some earlier posts and discovered this Farewell to a Potential Lover. It's not unlike letters I've written again and again over the past few years. It's not much different than the letters I wrote this week.
I have absolutely no idea to whom this letter was written. I don't recall any of the cirumstances of our discussions. I don't even know if I cut him off because I lost interest and gave him a line of crap to get rid of him or if I was really in one of those phases of trying to "break free." But I do remember that I simply was obsessed with writing this letter. I couldn't go on until it was written. And so here it is three years later, a reminder that the more things change, the more they stay the same.
When they say addiction is "cunning, baffling and powerful," they sure aren't kidding.

1 comment:

thorninmyflesh said...

Hope you are feeling OK. Once you make the "giant leap", per se, the more things will never have to be the same.

You need a strong (female) sponsor, though, in my opinion, because you have got to have someone who will carry you through those obsessive yearning periods that will no doubt take over in your first year. Holy, moly, I know from experience...