Monday, January 07, 2008

Connecting to a loss of direction

Since moving here almost a year ago, there have been weeks where there have been many tasks to do each day, or weeks when I was planning my time around acting out, or participating in recovery.

For the weeks before the holidays and now the days that have followed I have had more of a sense that my life has no direction. I need direction, goals and a to do list each day. Life somewhat surrounded my husband while he was here for the holidays, and then have been focused on getting the new dog acclimated to her our home. But today it feels like there is nothing to do ... and not in a good way. I don't have a desire to act out, thank God. But I also don't have much of a desire to do anything else.

I guess there's still a bit of the depression hanging on ... I'm hanging on too, and promise to outlast it.


bella said...

Sometimes having nothing to do is not a good thing. I hear you.
I hope you find some clarity, direction, and feel yourself conncting in your day to day.

Anonymous said...

I know the sense - no movitation - do only what has to be done and sometime that is with effort. Also, Sometimes, during that period of "lost", God is lining up strength and wisdom within so you make the right decisions. I know that doesn't make the present easier, but as long as you keep looking, the right door will open for you. I Know!!!!