Monday, July 16, 2007

All I can do ...

... is cry. I'm in a pain I don't understand. It's getting worse, now I can't even feel the pain. I can feel sadness. I can feel hopelessness at times ... just waiting until the disaster gets big enough to make me stop, makes me get off my ass and do what I need to do to get a job, to get the house in order, literally and figuratively.

I really am treating myself badly lately, hating myself, unable and worse, unwilling, to step out of the cycle. Standing on the outside ... looking in.

2 comments:

Mary P Jones (MPJ) said...

More hugs from me to you...

[[[Rae]]]

Me, Myself and I said...

don't give up, do not give up! and love yourself, that's the way to overcome and fight against your addiction.