After a long time

I'm posting something here after a month ... it seems like after a year. I still struggle every day and some days I just want to scream, as I cannot seem to rid my need for Internet chat and the men I meet here. I had at least narrowed it down to one person ... then E. shows up again, asking if we can help each other with our addiction. Oh yeah, he's really interested in me helping him with that. But who can blame him. I have to learn to ask for what I want... not give in to what someone else wants.

That's enough.